How Did I Catch Feelings for Another Woman’s Man?
How does it feel when you share chemistry with someone who is already taken? Been there, done that, and know the feeling first-hand.
So if you are still reading, then either you are dealing with this same situation or you have dealt with it in the past. Your first thought is how to deal with such an emotion. Well, there is no easy fix. I can tell you that much. I remember meeting this guy who had a smile that pierced me inside out, not even knowing his name I already felt a connection. I thought he was amazingly handsome and I was intrigued to find out more about him; ironically we were both in the same online class that only met as a class for orientation and our monthly test. We interacted by posting our weekly class paper and commenting on one another’s papers via our class posting board online.
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Okay, so how did we hook-up? Well, one day I was minding my own business headed to see my professor to turn in some assignments and who did I see—yep, Mr. Man—and without thinking I walked right up to him and introduced myself. I felt like I was in a trance because I am more of the shy type who lets opportunities pass by, but not this one, honey. We shook hands and talked for a minutes and I walked on, not exchanging phone numbers or anything. A few days later, I received a personal email from my school email from Mr. Man giving me kudos on my classwork and the next thing I know, we were engaging into personal conversations via email, getting to know one another better. I made it my business to read all his papers he submitted on the board and I made sure I commented on them as well and he did the same thing in return.
Through our emails, we found out that we had a lot in common. I start falling in love with his strong mental intellect. Finally he asked for my phone number and we started talking on the phone again; we were still getting to know one another and by now we realized that we had a lot more in common than ever. Then comes the big question. I asked if he was dating someone and he said he had a live-in girlfriend. Oh I was like nooooo, that’s not the right answer. Well, curiosity wasn’t going to let me off that easy; Mr. Man told me that things wasn’t working out between him and his girlfriend as he thought they would and that he was ready to end the relationship with her peacefully. I was cheering on the inside but after carefully thinking about it, I repented for my thoughts. We continued to talk and we began waiting on each other when were both on campus at the same time. The talking went from kissing to hugging and more kissing and hugging. Oh he smelled so good, his lips were soft, and my goodness he was a great kisser.
Okay, I was in too deep at this point. We continued to talk on the phone and text each other. Finally I did the unthinkable—I went to his job and we had what I like to call thrill sex; yes thrill because if we would have gotten caught he would’ve been standing in the unemployment line. Oh he caressed my body and made love to me so genuinely that I smiled all the way home. He text me afterward and told me how great I felt. Ever since that day it has been hard to keep our hands off one another. The fire between us had been blazing up until a few weeks ago when his ole lady went lurking through his phone and questioned why my number was there multiple times and they had a argument and he said he needed to deal with her really soon. Well that was a month ago; we just finished finals and beside the little time on campus and the pop-up visit he did last week, I haven’t talked with him or been able to spend time with him like he said we would. I know that a few unforeseen things had come up on his end.
I keep telling myself to walk away and trust me, I have tried, but one part of me is saying let go and the other part is saying no, don’t let go. I really want more than what I’m getting but again, what do you do when you are in love with another woman’s man. See, it’s easy to say what you would or should do, but unless you are dealing with the situation you will never understand the task. It is my goal to let go before the New Year. I tell you the things we have done and the places we have done them are just plain funny and will be remembered for a long time to come. So you may be wondering how am I going to let go. Well, I tried writing a letter and that didn’t work so I planned on just walking away, no more notes, no goodbye, and mostly no more looking back just walking away. I can’t even be his friend right now because it will take us both back to square zero. I do have morals and I am a good person but I just found myself all caught up, I figured if all this is really meant to be, if we cross paths again, especially like this, then hopefully we are both single, but I can’t keep on this way. If you have a comment or a similar story, tell me; I want to hear about it.